BPD Diaries: Love Yourself, Hard.

Love every ounce of your being. If you don't, how can you expect someone else to?

This will be my last blog for THIS series. It's been fun, and maybe later on in life, I can pick it back up and reengage with it. For now, however, I have picked up a lot more exciting things that have better opportunities behind them, and I can't wait to share those with you all.

Like beginning production on my next novel.

Could dropping one thing you were super committed to for ten other projects be the most BPD thing I've done this year?

But it's for success. I'm striving to be better and for bigger opportunities. If you're hungry, eat, and baby, we're eating this year. You should, too. Speaking of which, how's your fridge looking?

No, seriously, how is your fridge looking?

Is it clean and organized? Awesome! Skip this part! The rest of you, why let it stay dirty? If a happy stomach leads to a happy mind, why would you let the place that holds the key to happiness be disgusting?? It should be a sanctuary. Think about being stressed out, and now you're going to stress-eat. You open your fridge, and it's disgusting. Now you're stressed and annoyed, but you shut the door and move on in a terrible mood. Let's say the opposite happens. You're happy, and you go for a snack. Now you're in a bad mood because your fridge stressed you out. The problems aren't going anywhere, you just have to find the give a damn to fix it. Once you do, the alleviation is euphoric. You deserve that relief.

Now, let's take that concept and plug it into every part of your life.

I've given you a lot of ideas and concepts to help in past posts. Finding the root of your issues and unfucking those for your sanity. I can't do anything more there and that's another big reason why these are coming to an end.

We're fucked in the head, we get it. In reality though, we're only as fucked as we allow ourselves to be. In all honesty, my BPD and mania have helped me become everything I want in life. When I channel the energy they give me towards the right direction, I'm able to accomplish some pretty awesome shit and I know you can too. It just takes practice, repetition, and self-love, man.

You have to love yourself

Read that again, amigo. It's true. If you don't do it for yourself, it's never going to work. If you don't love who you are, make changes until you do. You can't change in comfort; in fact, some of the most rewarding moments in my life have been completely outside of my comfort zone. Business meetings I thought I had no business going into coming out with a deal and being way ahead of where I thought I was. Getting numbers of girls that I thought I stood zero chance with. Ended up spending 4 years of my life with one. sorry Lisa. Starting my own business. All of it became achievable through exiting my comfort zone, and I'll tell ya, there were great outcomes for every single one of those instances.

Isolation is okay.

For the first bit of my journey, I locked myself away from everything and just worked. I began fixing my food habits, exercising more, and learning more. Fuck that's so important, I promise your appeal becomes much more sexy if you're intelligent. After about a month, I kind of wanted to go out a bit more, but I wasn't there. I'd go out, but nothing felt right. I wasn't me. I didn't love me. I went back into isolation for another month and said, "What do I need to do to love me?". Then I did that shit. You have to have that talk with yourself and make it happen.

Then the rest of your life begins.

Feeling good? Awesome. Go Explore. NOW!

Get out of your bubble; half of your anxiety and depression comes from the fear of the unknown. H.P. Lovecraft said it best: "The oldest and strongest emotion known to mankind is fear, and the oldest and strongest fear is the fear of the unknown.". There are so many great opportunities for you out there, you just have to make an effort to go get them. You deserve them. Love yourself enough to capitalize on those moments. Now that you love who you are don't ever go back to being a piece of shit, I'll tell you from experience, you can drop back to square one quicker than you can say "Oh, fuck.".

You're on top; stay there, champion!