Psalm 30

We cry, pray, and ask God for help. We get the help, then abandon God. It's a vicious cycle, but it can be broken! Psalm 30:

1 I will exalt you, Lord, for you lifted me out of the depths and did not let my enemies gloat over me.

2 Lord, my God, I called to you for help, and you healed me.

3 You, Lord, brought me up from the realm of the dead; you spared me from going down to the pit.

4 Sing the praises of the Lord, you his faithful people; praise his holy name.

5 For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

6 When I felt secure, I said, “I will never be shaken.”

7 Lord, when you favored me, you made my royal mountain stand firm; but when you hid your face, I was dismayed.

8 To you, Lord, I called; to the Lord I cried for mercy 

9 “What is gained if I am silenced, if I go down to the pit? Will the dust praise you? Will it proclaim your faithfulness?

10 Hear, Lord, and be merciful to me; Lord, be my help.”

11 You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,

12 that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent. Lord, my God, I will praise you forever.

When AI tells you to correct the grammar from scripture... Well, it has been a while. I feel it too. I need this blog with everything in me. I haven't just abandoned ship if that's what you're thinking! Life has been busy, that is no excuse, though, and I know that. SO, I have made a promise to go back to at least weekly blogs. It's so easy to fall off the horse, I can't stress that enough. Not just with blog posts either. It started with the blog post, then it went to the gym, then eating healthy, then God. It's like all the things I cried about months ago, I got, then ditched everything that helped me receive them. I can't think to question how much this happens in everyone's life. We discipline ourselves to get the things we want out of life, and then once we receive them, we tend to fall back into old habits. It's a vicious cycle.

This isn't a sad post, though!

The gym and diet will fluctuate; that happens. What really bugged me was how lenient I became with my relationship with God. I still tried living through his word and whatnot, but I haven't been praying as much, attending church regularly, or even listening to my Bible In A Year podcast.

I earned 1000 Hail Marys, right? Terrible joke.. moving on.

I've constantly thought about how I needed to write and how I needed to pray more. Really, I've only gone two weeks without church since I started going; most visits are virtual, yes, but I'm still watching the service. IT COUNTS. It's not like all hope was lost; I just got comfortable with distance, and that leads to a huge problem.

You see, comfort in distance leads to trying less, which inevitably leads to the end of a relationship. I know, I lost the love of my life that way once. Currently, we are living the best life we can really and work has been great for both of us. Those were two things I prayed and wanted so damn bad a couple months ago. I wanted more than anything to be happy with Lisa and to start my own company. I prayed and busted my ass to stay disciplined to make it all happen, through God's will of course. It was a hard couple of months, I went over 4 months without a day off, but I can say I do have my own business now, and it's paying bills. I can say Lisa is probably the happiest she's ever been with me. All of those things wouldn't have been possible without God, and I've been more distant from him than I have in a while.

All jokes aside, it isn't okay, and it is a reality. For me, I know what I have to do. God helped me through the darkest times of my life, and I know this is the furthest away from him I'll ever get because I am grateful for his (or her) presence, and I know I need it in my life to be the best version of myself. There's so much in Psalms 30 I can relate to, and hopefully, when you read it, you could say the same.

My biggest point on this week's blog is not to forget those who are working the hardest for you, those who are rooting for your every win, those who support you when you don't even see it.

It's easy to forget God when we get the things we prayed for. Read that again.

Don't do it! It really isn't okay, and realistically, it can all be taken away at any given moment. Stay humble, work hard, be disciplined, and love hard. Have fun as well, legal fun.

Don't forget who you were when you got the things you needed the most.

Through the darkest nights, you made it. Keep going and see what other great shit you can accomplish.

Until next week, Stay Blessed!