Psalm 1:1-3

"If God were your boss, how would he feel about your business, and what could you do to impress him?" - CJ

¹ Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers,² but whose delight is in the law of the Lord,    and who meditates on his law day and night.³ That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,    which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither—    whatever they do prospers.

Holy shit, it's been a minute since I've written. Life got insane there for a second, for the better! Lots of work came in, which I'm super grateful for. Going on over two months, no days off, but honestly, when you run your own business, you pray for that kind of busy. God's been good and I've been lacking. Time to get back on track, though! Quick side note, everyone who has reached out asking what happened to my writing, or just that they could appreciate it, you are amazing. Every comment makes this even more rewarding, and I am beyond grateful for every one of you. Now, let's dive in.

So yesterday I had my monthly rendezvous with my buddy CJ. CJ is my mentor on business and faith. He's a lot more to me than just that, but for now, until he gets his own blog post, we'll leave it at that. During these meet-ups, we always go over how business is going, and then where we are with our faith and what we've gone through with it the past month. So on so forth. After going over how busy things have been and how blessed I've been because of it, CJ then asked me a great question.

"If God were your boss, how would he feel about your business, and what could you do to impress him?"

I was stunned. Normally, even if I don't have an answer, I'll talk my way around and through to the next conversation. A king of bullshit, if you will, but I knew I couldn't bullshit this answer. CJ also knew I couldn't bullshit this answer as he hit me with intense direct eye contact. This wasn't a "there's no right or wrong answer" type of question; I knew nothing I was doing was based on faith the past two months. Hell, even my free advertisement post I do for small businesses, I didn't have time to do any in September, and now in October. It hit me like a ton of bricks, how CAN I make this business in line with God's agenda? I'd be lying if I said I had the answer, but I know writing these sure does feel right, so here we are, and this brings me to today's topic. Your surroundings and how they affect you

Your vibe attracts your tribe, you are what you eat, however the hell you want to say it. It's all true. Psalm1:1 talks about surrounding yourself with the right people. If we take it a bit further and think about our mental surroundings and metaphysical surroundings as well, we can discover more about ourselves and how we can let evil in, which then tries to consume us with negativity. When I think about my personal weakest link these past couple of months, it's been that drive for money. Greed. I can see that. Lisa and I do okay, but I want to do amazing. Which makes me overload my plate, and then I'm spending less time with family and even less time writing about God. I put myself in that environment, but I'm getting better about it. Here's the thing, though: if you give the devil an inch, he'll consume all of you.

So the first verse is pretty self-explanatory, and I can hear some of my friends now, "What do you mean you don't hang with sinners?" I love all you heathens the same. We all sin, it happens, but this is a bigger idea. Think more along the lines of hanging with meth heads probably has its consequences, whereas hanging out with driven people will probably lead to a better life. Or don't. Go hang out with meth heads, it's your life. Also, keep a clean house; it's good for your mental state. VERSE 2!!!! This is a big one for me here recently. Those who meditate in the Lord's law, that is huge. For the past 14 years or so, I'd get anxiety so bad that sometimes I'd call into work and lash out at the world like a big ol' bitch. This year, though, I really have found the power of prayer and have learned to give those negative emotions to God, and he rids me of them. I might sound crazy to some, and if so, then I'm a lunatic. When you learn how to pray, it can be powerful. With that, though, also live in God's word and be the best person you can. Don't pray away an anxiety attack and then go be a big piece of shit. The world doesn't need that. Practice what you preach and learn how to walk with God daily; it really does help. Final verse. Who doesn't want to flourish like a fruit tree? Someone's shouting "GAAAYYY!", I can hear it now. I'll let you have this one. Seriously, though, it is a great metaphor. Some days, I am really in tune spiritually, and I feel stout like a fucking tree. I honestly feel like nothing can stop me, and even if my back's against the wall, I know I'll be fine because I'm living the best life I can through the words of God. On the opposition, though, some days I let the negative emotions in, and I get "too busy to pray," and one day without my bible study turns into three. Those days, those weeks. I feel human. I feel vulnerable. I feel like anyone could whoop my ass, and internally, I feel sick. That's the way the devil wants us to feel. Again, if it sounds crazy, then I'm a fucking lunatic. Altogether now!

Last note to end on, going back to the surroundings. The past couple of times I have felt at my lowest, I did some reflecting. What did I let in to get me down? I wasn't worried about finances the day I was prayed up (shout out Marky Mark) because I knew God had my back. So why am I worried now? He hasn't let me down; he always provides. What is it? Then I think... Well. I did watch the exorcists today, I listened to an hour of Ghost, and every video game I've played the last month was a horror game filled with satanic and demonic things in it. Aye, wey. I might have let that shit in. Now, if you know me, you know none of that will change, but there's moderation, right? I love horror movies, Ghost, & Silent Hill, but if I am investing more time into them than I am God, how can I expect him to invest in me? Surround yourself with God, good energy, and love, and I promise that whatever you're going through will start to get better. That's it for this blog. I will be back next week, and hopefully I'll have the answer to CJ's million-dollar question. Goodnight!