Proverbs 14:33 - 35

Believe in whatever you need to in order to become a better person.

Proverbs 14:33 - 35

" Wisdom reposes in the heart of the discerning

and even among fools she lets herself be known

Righteousness exalts a nation,

but sin condemns any people

A king delights in a wise servant,

but a shameful servant arouses his fury."

It's been over a week since I've written, and I feel every bit of that. Life's been busy. That's no excuse, though. Imagine getting to the pearly gates and God being like, "I'm too busy to open them."

Fuck me, what a thought...

Pretty straightforward this week: Wisdom and Righteousness. Simplified, don't be a dumbass, and be a good person. If ANYONE understands this is a lot easier said than done, it's this guy. You're talking to who used to be, the king of dumbasses. Red Foreman would have lost multiple shoes up my ass.

We grow, though, and we learn.

Young Max has done enough cocaine and made enough bad decisions to ruin a lifetime's worth of relationships; however, every day, I am rekindling and making new friendships that I could have never made before. A wise woman once told me that every day is a chance to begin anew. To capitalize on that, though, being 2% better than you were the day before will always lead to success. I get it, we'll have our bad days, and sometimes we'll lose percentage. It happens. The next day, be two percent better. The only other advice I can give about being 2% better each day is to not limit yourself to 100% when you can be so much more.

That's because God allows this for us.

He never set a numeric value for any of us. He never wanted us to say, "Well, I'm as good as I'm going to get, let's stop here." No, that was never the case for us; we chose that. At some point, someone said, "Be 100%, and you'll be fine."

The problem with that is we hit a ceiling and begin to limit our capabilities. Sometimes you have to work hard as fuck to get where you want in life, that's okay. I've been working 7 days a week since December 3rd, and honestly, there's no stopping in sight.

Coincidentally, my life has gotten a million times better, and I've become someone whom I love. It's been quite a while since I could say that and mean it. I know there's more than me pushing myself to do better, though.

God gives me that extra boost when I think I'm empty. You see, I've come to realize God's not going to give you anything you can't handle, and what you put in is what you get out.

Then there's Satan. This dude is going to try like Hell (get it?) to bring you down. You can't let him. Get a nail in your tire on your way to work? At least it's still holding air, I'll get it fixed soon. Are you having intrusive thoughts of being alone forever? Nah, you've got God on your side, and he's telling you to enjoy the peace & quiet when you can; you've earned it. For every action, there will be another reaction. That Newton guy said that, right? Sure he did. You have to stay positive. It's hard at first, but you will soon realize...

You're positivity will become righteousness. When you become righteous, nothing can get in your way.

I used to be super pessimistic, so much so that I'd even joke about negative outcomes only to then realize I wasn't joking. That was my train of thought.

SELF SABOTAGE!!

I've been reading The Mindful Day by Laurie J. Cameron and holy fuck dude, this book has some serious life saving techniques in it. Combined with the absolute powerhouse that the bible is, you're set up for mental success. The book teaches all kinds of healthy habits to help those in need practice mindfulness. I can't stress this enough: if you have any mental illness, including BPD, you need this book. You're only as weak as you allow your mental illness to be strong. So quit being a bitch and saddle up dude, fix yourself. (I can say that I have BPD :))

In all seriousness, though, the things we consume mentally have an everlasting impact on how we see life. On the days I get both my mindful reading and bible study in, I'm unstoppable. I see things with a different lens and what used to stress me doesn't because I know how to deal with it all, and I know I'm doing everything I can to fix it, and I also know,

I believe in God as much as he believes in me

When I first started believing, I can say a big amount of it was just because if I did OD, I didn't want to go to hell. HaHA ha, sooo STUPID!! Seriously though, that's a huge reason why a lot of people believe, and that's not righteous at all, dude.

I fucked a lot up a while back and lost just about everything that mattered to me except for my daughter, my dogs, and God. Do you know what all three of those things had in common?

They never quit believing in me.

To my daughter, I'm her Superman. I couldn't sit and be a bitch about things so, I did that when she wasn't around. Until finally I got disgusted with myself and realized nobody likes a fucking cry baby. My dogs believed in me cause they know nothing but unconditional love, and they wanted to eat. God, however, was there through it all. He watched me sob like a bitch and picked me up enough to say, "Tomorrow, will be better. We'll be better". I swear I could just feel a supernatural presence around in the most uplifting way when I needed it the most.

When you feel something so powerful, you begin to start believing for the right reasons. Especially when someone you lost hope in, gave up on, never gave up on you.

When you realize that something so powerful and something so beautiful moved within you so much that you, in turn, want to be the best person you can be so you can have that same impact on someone else, that's when you begin to become righteous.

I can live life for me, myself, and I, sure, but what's righteous is considering others and those in need. When you begin to care and love your surroundings like God loves you, that's how we get through this the best we can.

That's what I think being righteous means, anyway.

Wisdom is a bit of a no-brainer. I'll give you a simplified version of that since this one's been a bit lengthy. My mom used to tell me this when I was a smart ass. teenager, it goes like..

"Read a fucking book."

And about 15 years later, I have to admit she was right. Reading helps immensely when it comes to changing our scope on perception because based on what we read, we learn more! This isn't brain surgery; the more we learn, the less stupid we are, and things make more sense.

My mother was a saint, by the way; I drove her to talk like that. Could you imagine legally having to live with this monstrosity of a teenager?

God bless her soul. (love you mom :))

For every trash TV episode you watch, watch an episode of some kind of documentary. Especially the animal ones, fuck those are so resourceful and colorful.

Learn more, and you'll feel better. That's real. Happy mind, Happy Life. Strong mind, Strong life. Weak mind, you're fucked.

When you become righteous and you're actions are backed by wisdom, your life begins anew.

Oh yeah, quit doom-scrolling. That shit will KILL brain cells and any happiness you have. The algorithm doesn't give a fuck about your feelings and will purposely make you feel sad so you scroll until you feel happy again, only to trap you in the constant cycle every time you take a shit. There are so many apps and even e-books that can help you learn new things. Do one of those while you shit instead of scrolling through the toxicity you see on social media. (I know; I work with social media for a living.)

Stay Blessed & Goodnight!